Surviving the Jams
It's a torture to get trapped in massive jams
It's a gamble everyday...
"Which lane is faster?"
Committing sins everyday...
"Fuck you, for hogging the lane!"
Making wishes everyday...
"I wish my car can fly"
Jam reminds me of...
driving back from Taylors,
driving back from Citibank,
driving back from Crowne Plaza,
driving to and fro Ipoh with him,
As bad as 'traffic jams' may seem,
They bring back memories of my past..
both sweet and bitter ones
Driving through the traffic makes me creative
I store cashew nuts in my car
Eat em' when i get stuck in d jam
But when it's jam-less, i get slimmer
Coz it prevents me from eating
-Jeanette W.
I know my poem sounds stupid. i thought about it while i got trapped in a jam just now. that's what i always do. Driving makes me think a lot, especially when i'm alone. not that it's a bad thing. it makes me feel at peace sometimes. having some space to myself, listening to soothing musics and reflect my day... sounds as though i'm meditating in a car, while going through a jam.. wtf?
Anyway, i met up with my Citibank buddy, See See just now. I was so so so glad to able to meet up with her! Didn't know that i miss her this much.. Brought her to Levain Boulangerie as she really wanted to try out the cafe which everyone has been talking about lately, especially in facebook. Yeah, where else could it be? I insisted to meet up on weekdays because i can bet my bottom dollar that it will be packed like sardines on weekends... also my weekends have been reserved by my Liebling and Familie.
I'm not going to do a Food review about this little cafe, not now at least. I just wanted to blog. There's something inside me that i wish i could express but i just couldn't find the right words.
You see, meeting up with her makes me feel a little depressed. Sure we did have a great time catching up over our afternoon tea... we talked about food, jobs, education, boyfriends, movies .... we chatted and laughed to ourselves the entire afternoon without even knowing that we sat for more than 2.5hours.
Can't see the problem, can you? The thing is, i feel selfish. i feel like i'm a bad friend. For all the times which i could have gone out with her, i chose not to. i always.. always.. always.. choose him over them.. i wonder when will i ever stop? when will i be able to find the balance in life?
i feel like slapping myself because all i ever do is whine and complain about everything, and never seem to do anything about it.
someone shoot me.
Piang !!!!!! Shoot you liao bee, but your mighty nose deflected the bullet gracefully hehe
ReplyDeleteah bee and her cute poems about the time she spend in jam. in the jam also u can listen to the radio. make fun of others, take note of the driver next to u whether she is pretty or not just like how u notice some in KPT.
as u grow older, of course ur commitment towards liebling & familie grows ma. Imagine when you are a baby, definitely u have 0 commitment. Trust me, later in life, you don't even have time for yourself hehe but dun worry darling, with your "special ability", you can even make time stop hehe
Dear, sometimes I feel the same way you do too...not only about the jams (drive in Penang...you'll be cursing and yelling at other drivers the whole time you're behind the wheel)...but also about hanging out with friends. I also hung out with my boyfriend more than I did with my other friends...and I didn't realize that some "distance" was growing between my friends and I. It was only after I came to Switzerland that I realized how much I was taking them for granted...so when I go back, I'll make sure I split my time properly between my family, friends and boyfriend. Don't worry so much about it dear...just be happy and cherish the time you spent back home for your holiday! By the end of the year, you'll be back to see everyone again! :D
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